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Still in bed. Still coughing. I'm feeling slightly better, despite the ongoing low grade fevers, so I'll take that as a plus.
I've been in bed pretty much all day with exceptions to get Liv from the bus stop and to order pizza online for dinner. I've been reading a message board about Scientology all day too.
Mind you, I live in Clearwater--spiritual home of the COS. I could walk to the Fort Harrison hotel. I see Flag busses pass my street every day. Most of my neighbors are COS--Nice people, but distant. I don't hang with them, they don't hang with the rest of us--It's very West Side Story but without the music, dancing, gang violence or angst. So nothing like West Side Story, really.
Living here, I kind of have a different viewpoint on the COS, I guess. I mean, whenever people come visit, I take them downtown to the Starbucks to go Scientologist spotting. I am assumed to be COS because of my zip code, so I get a lot of their mailings about their "approved" businesses, activities, schools, summer camps, yadda yadda.
I will admit to being a bit afraid of the COS as well. I mean, they are NASTY to people they don't like and they don't like a few of my friends. But still, some of the stuff that I'm reading about how they treat their 'parishoners' is blood-curdling. Poor people. It certainly makes my already-done avoidance of those "approved" businesses feel even more like the right thing.
So anyway, here I sit, bored out of my skull and typing whatever comes to mind. I haven't done that in a long time because... well... I've been busy and drained and sick and worried about my internet footprint and my professional life and freaky people knowing who I am and wanting to hurt my family and and and...
Blah. I've also consumed a Lortab(for the cough), an Augmentin, a Juicy Juice (fruit punch--mmmm) and five Golden Double Stuffed Oreos--which are the food of the Gods and will never, EVER be allowed in my house again. (When I had no appetite and eating three of them with the Augmentin to be sure I didn't puke and then wouldn't eat anything else all day, that was fine. Now that my appetite is back, OH HELL NO I CAN'T HAVE THIS IN THE HOUSE.)
So anyway, what to talk about?
It's turning a little chilly tonight--may drop to 58F or so. I'm going to have to remember to pull out an extra blanket before the Lortab really kicks in. I won't really care that I'm cold but when it wears off and I wake up to pee, that will be tragic.
Liv is struggling in high school. Part of it is the change--it is a big change from middle school, after all. She's not used to having to study hard in all her classes. Hell, she's not used to studying and doesn't grasp the concept of "working ahead" very well. And when I get the progress reports in that say she's not doing her homework after I ask her EACH AND EVERY DAY, "so, any homework?", well, yeah. THAT conversation went well, as you can assume.
And the issue is this. She's in high school. I can only do so much and I should only HAVE to do so much. She's getting close to adulthood and she's going to have to learn how to handle consequences on her own. And as much as that sucks, it is a truth in life that if you don't work for what you want, you won't get it (well, usually. Some people always seem to have everything handed to them, but that's never been us. And there's always the caveat that no matter how hard you work, sometimes you don't get what you want either, but at least you tried.) (can't you tell I've taken a narcotic? Why are you reading this?)
I'm still incredibly blessed. Liv is an awesome kid and since we've had the 'conversation', she's been writing down all her homework assignments and then showing them to us to show us she's completed them. (we don't... CAN'T... check for accuracy--her classes are too advanced for us) She admitted today she likes having to do that because it MAKES her have to do them. So hopefully this will be the end of it. I hope. She's too smart to be screwing up her future with stupid stuff.
She is making top grades in Honors World History (
columella should be proud). She was a little bummed when she had to do an oral report on Alexander the Great.
"That's awesome! I love his story," I said.
She rolled her eyes and whined, "he's BORING. BORING."
I was driving so I was only able to side glance at her. "You know he was gay, right?"
She sat straight up. "What? Really?"
"Or at least Bi. His lover was ... I can't remember his name. Some servant, I think. You'll have to research that part."
"THAT IS SO AWESOME."
She received a 100% on that report too. Went over her alotted time and everything since she'd researched him to the hilt based on that one sentence.
She is so my kid.
What else???
Evan the kitten is doing well. Luna is sleeping on my feet as I type this. We've had to completely seperate them because Luna is not accepting him, and he's not too happy with her either. He and Leyla get along okay and I've seen her actually tolerating a little bit (not much) of play out of him.
The worst part is that Evan teases Luna through the glass door. He likes to sit right on top of carrier I keep out there (he likes to run in and out of it and sleep in it) and stare in at Luna. This, of course, drives Luna batshit and she charges the door, jumps on it, tries to push it open, tries to dig under it, yadda yadda. Evan sits there, stares at her, meows at her and then makes those kitten feints at the door with his paw.
Luna spends most of her time glaring at him, tail done up like a bottle brush. We have very strict times when they are allowed into the main part of the house. Only Leyla gets free access to everywhere, but she'd rather sleep.
Liv thinks that Luna has gained weight since Evan arrives, and swears that it is all muscle. She thinks that either she's got a kitty weight lifting gym hidden somewhere or she's on steroids. She then states the steroids would explain the aggressive behavior--'roid rage.
We were discussing possible sources--Leyla has never liked Luna and could be trying to set her up. But that would be too much work for Leyla and would cut into her 26 hour a day sleep schedule.
We finally decided the squirrels were the source and were imitating squirrels in trench coats lifting up their arms, pointing at their wares and squeaking.
Of course, Thom thinks it is strange that we still think this visual is hilariously funny. Figures.
Thom's father continues to worsen. It is my understanding that he was near unresponsive last time his brother went up to see him. That makes me very sad
And under the heading of "It keeps piling on", my sister/aunt (long story) Cissie is in ICU in Jacksonville. Long story short, the woman pretty much raised me and was my favorite sister. She protected me from my alcoholic (grand)mother, and then ran away and got into a lot of bad things over the years. Ruined her liver with alcohol and drugs, and looks like she may have gone too far with the latest binge.
I'm so sad for several reasons. Obviously, I can't take off and go see her, and I think I'd rather not. I love this woman so much that I think I'd rather remember her before she got messed up--and it makes me so sad to think how far back I have to think to find a time when she wasn't messed up. Fucking drugs. It makes me so damn angry sometimes to think about lives wasted.
But anyway... I really don't have much else to say. Maybe I'll go dig up Eternity of Blood or something while I'm wasted.